so yea. concert training today was like bullshit. the coreographer expects the ug to dance like the mordern dance people, like as in move our body more and sway our hips. like hello? i dont know about the others, but i aint swaying my hips like some mad bitch.

after that, the rest wanted to practice on fancy drills. kay, i know y'all want everyone to know the steps perfectly. but for gawd's sake, you cant expect a person who hasnt attended any rehearsals to know how to do it. get that Yasmin? kaw aja aku macam tknk aja sioll. tknk aja suda ah. aku step down dari ni concert sua.

now, i feel like throwing myself on my bed. hugging the minnie mouse abg Khai gave me , and just crying myself to sleep. i cant take all the noncense y'all are giving me. and whatever it is, dont expect me to be in a super good mood every rehearsal. i aint a robot, and i certainly aint programmed to be happy all the time. im a human being la kay, and humans have feelings.

kay, enough anger being let out. still counting down the days to the chalet. currently 6 days left. i seriously cant wait. im definitely gonna spend most of my time with Sarah and Abang Syamil darlings. and not forgetting cam-whoring with them too. its garaunteed my worries will fade away[:

gosh. i feel so fucked up. :/